I’m terrified of giving birth.

It’s so crazy, this is all I’ve ever wanted. I’ve always wanted a baby of my own. Me and my so have tried for a year, and after 3 miscarriages, it’s finally happened and now problems so far. 15 weeks exactly. But the more I think about giving birth the more it terrifies me!!! I hate that because having a baby has been my dream. I hope I’ll be able to get over this fear by the time he comes so I won’t make it worse, but everyone talks about how bad it is. I’d defiantly get an epidural to help with pain, but even with that people say it’s awful! What are your opinions/experiences with giving birth with epidural & was it THAT bad? 😩😕