Bad day, bad week, bad year !

It feels like we have been trying for a baby since the beginning of time. It has been nearly 18 months. 😑😩😑... I don’t even know what to do anymore and I can’t keep going through the emotional disappointment when AF shows up.

On top of trying for a baby and being unsuccessful. I have started a job in a different field and I am not doing very well. It feels like a constant struggle and I feel so stupid. I am a lawyer (bizarrely). I do not come from a well educated or well to do family. I struggled to read at the age of 11. I know it’s a massive accomplishment to even get to where I am but when I decided to change the area of law I practiced I knew it would be hard but not impossible. Now everyday I realise that I am not good enough and feel so horrible about disappointed with my capabilities. I am no quitter but I know there are battles you have to accept defeat. I am thinking this one.

I think life has come to an all tile low. My health isn’t great, I am struggling to conceive and underperforming at work. 😩😔😩

The inadequacy is painful.