Mentally Abusive Mothers

My mom has beat down on me my whole life. She has always criticized and condemned my every move. She has always judged me as harshly as one can judge another. Today I feel like I am at my wits end. You see, I’m a mother too. I have 3 stepdaughters aged 10, 7, and 4. And I have one biological son who is 3. Plus I am pregnant. Not only do I have all these kids. I work. A lot. I work my ass off. And I am so TIRED. Normal right? Raise your hand if you’re a busy mom who is exhausted like, all the time. I figure that’s a lot of you. Well, my mom was hanging out with me and my son this evening and I also had two of my stepdaughters today, and she saw that I was really tired and she just kind of stared at me. So I told her I was exhausted. Then she was like, “I don’t know how you’re gonna do it with another one.” And I know it doesn’t sound all that bad for her to say. But the tone of her voice and look on her face was so condescending. She made me feel like a total failure. She always comments on my parenting style and techniques. Always tells me they’re stupid. She constantly talks to me like my decisions are stupid. So now she makes me feel like she thinks my decision to have another child was stupid and I’m just really upset because I want my mother to support me. But she doesn’t. And it sucks. And I hope I’m a better mom than that.