Pregnancy

So my bf is pro choice and I am pro life. He said a few weeks ago he wouldn't mind having a baby but now he's saying there is no way we are having one. He said if I get preganant then I have to abort. He wont even consider me carrying the baby and giving it up for adoption. He said if I do that he's going to leave. So basically I about and we stay together or i have it and he leaves. Idk if I'm preganat or not but if I am Idk what to do. I cant abort I just cant I dont believe in killing such a beautiful miracle..😞 help!!