Help 😭

I feel horrible 💔

(Sorry for the long post)

I feel like such an abusive wife.. A little bit of back story: My husband and I had a family get together at my in laws house last night and he drank beer and went over to whisky (He was drunk). When it came to leaving to go home I told him that I am going to drive home because he is drunk ( I am 14weeks pregnant so I had nothing to drink) I refused and grabbed the keys got into the car and drove off without me.. After about 15 mins my mother in law took me home but no one was home ( He went to a friend and this friend followed him home and the drank some more) so I couldn't get into the house.. I asked her to drop me off by my dad, I sat there for a little while than he took me home, I was on my way in the house feeling I do not want to fight and he made a comment about me ranning to my "Daddy" 😲 It got me all worked up and I just lost my #$#$, we were arguing and he said so much mean stuff that hurt me ( He is abusive with words) and I punched him grabbed his beer out his hand and throw the chair at him 💔 I really feel horrible about it but I was just a rage that came over me !

He is still sleeping his drunk ass off and will probably just make as if nothing happened..

Any words of advice?

Should I be worried about losing my baby ? I am really stressed out and very emotional..

I love my husband (Only married 8 months) and really cant see my lief without him but his attitude, the drinking and his friends are really starting to worry me..