La Fin

Hello, beautiful people

Tomorrow I will be breaking up with my boyfriend of the last year and a half. I'm not doing it because of him or because of problems within our relationship, but mainly because of myself. It's hard to explain...

In any case, I never thought that it would be this hard to break up with someone. Because I still do love him, even though I know that I can't be in a relationship with him anymore.

I'm scared. I don't want to face the world without him, my best friend, by my side. I don't want to not have his visits, messages, texts and phone calls to look forward to. I'm going to miss wrapping around him in full body hugs, I'm going to miss playing card games against h, I'm going to miss our "deep and philosophical" discussions that occur way too late at night... I know that things will never be the same between us, but I have to keep reminding myself that I'm doing this for myself-and, in a way, for him. He doesn't deserve to be in a relationship with someone who has to fight the urge to break up with him. That's not the right way to love someone.

Anyway. I'm not sure what the point of this post was. Maybe I'm just reaching out for support, maybe I just needed to rant.

If anyone has any advice or comments it would be greatly, greatly appreciated.

Thank you all for reading 💜