Staying in this marriage for the kids, please help.

My husband and I have been together since we were 15, now 27 years old. For the longest time we have been fighting and honestly just unhappy (at least I am ) he says he is still happy but how could he be?

Don’t get me wrong he’s an excellent man, excellent father. Never laid a hand on me or called me bad names. But, I don’t feel I am in love with this man anymore. We have two children a 4 year old and a 1 yr old. So we never get a chance to go out together, no one wants to baby sit. We hardly ever have sex because every time we try the 1 year old wakes up. So that’s also put a damper on us.

He is so emotionless, never says anything nice, never compliments me, shit he never even sits next to me on the couch. He comes home from work, shits, eats, flops on the couch turns the tv off and plays on his phone until bed time just a few short hours after. I admit, I’m always in a bitchy mood. I could be the best mood ever and as soon as he walks in the door its done and over with, I go into aggravated bitch mode.

It breaks my heart into to think I could raise my children in a broken family. My mom and dads divorce hit me hard when I was young, I can’t imagine them going through anything remotely close to what i did.

I have mentioned couples counseling, he refuses and said he isn’t wasting money on that. Whenever I sit him down and try and talk to him about it he acts like nothings wrong, and walks away. Or we end up fighting and just go separate ways.

Honestly, I’m done. I just want to move on. But, he’s all I know for 12 years now. He’s my only partner I’ve been with. Even more scary, I’m a stay at home mom to our kids while he works. How can I handle the finances? I just graduated with my bachelors in counseling and pursuing my masters in Jan, honestly so I can make sure I’m finically stable for when we separate.

All this sounds terrible, I know. But I’m torn and confused and don’t know what to do. Please anyone who has been through this, offer me some advice and guidance. I would love to save my marriage, but I don’t see it happening. I feel he hates me.

UPDATE 🚨

Genuinely thank you ladies for all of the advice and the support. My husband and I had a talk, one that actually didn’t lead to an argument! We both decided we needed more time together. With never getting alone time it’s really hurting our relationship. We’ve both agreed to go out every Sunday night and hire a baby sitter just for the occasion. As both agreed we are going to try out best to make this work. I feel so much better. I hope this is what we needed ❤️❤️