Dont know what to do😕

Lately I've felt so worthless with my self feeling not good enough mostly because I don't have job anymore so I feel like my man is constantly spending money on me and I hate it so much honestly it makes me mad at myself it makes me feel so useless because I've been trying to get a new job and nobody will contact me back or anything I need advice because this shit is honestly making me depressed and have trouble sleeping I just want to feel good enough but I feel like ever step higher I get I get pushed back down 100 steps..does anybody understand where I'm coming from or no what could help?!