Heartbroken

So I think the time has come for me to choose a hysterectomy. I have suffered with my cycle for the last two years, irregular, then having it for weeks into months, even had a d&c to help me out cause it was changing pads every 30 min heavy. Doctor told me if it continued a hysterectomy would be my best option. I have 2 daughters and when I was around 32 I decided I wanted to get married and have 2 more kids but here I am at two months away from 38 single and 2 kids still. Dont get me wrong I read post all the time of ppl struggling to have at least one and my heart breaks for them but I was that person saying I always wanted 4 so I may not known exactly how they feel but I know how much it hurts to not get that baby you always wanted. Sorry its a long post just felt the need to get it off my chest....