A little Embarrassing but I wonder how ladies would feel

So this is a little embarrassing as to why I’m posting anonymously!! I mean I know all couples watch porn while they are having sex or before they have sex. how would you feel if your significant other watched porn while having sex with you doggy style but refused to let you watch it or listen to it with him? My significant other has done this a couple times when we were having sex and it makes me kind of feel some type away. am I not satisfying him enough or that he wishes I was somebody else? we only ever do doggy style here and there we try missionary or do other stuff but nothing more than that. I want to get on stop while he’s on the couch an ride him but nope he won’t do it!!