Feel guilty for not bed sharing anymore....

So my little girl has been sleeping with us since day one. I would bounce her to sleep every night on the yoga ball, and she took naps in her swing. As you can see she's motion obsessed.. I've tried nursing her to sleep instead but my letdown is too fast for her to relax, and she gets full before she gets tired. So already co sleeping has had challenge's.

By the time she was 2 months old she was taking an hour to go to sleep by bouncing, while weighing 12 lbs! After a month of trying everything to get her to sleep with ease, and it getting worse, I finally came to the conclusion she needed to learn to settle herself since she wouldn't let me help her anymore.

We did sleep training last week and she has been going to sleep within 10 mins for naps and 20 for bedtime. I nurse her every time she wakes up at night which has been every 3-4 hours.

I hate it. I hate having her cry and her thinking that I've abandoned her, or am not listening. I hate not snuggling her in the middle of the night while nursing in our bed, and I hate not hearing her breathe next to me. But she seems to be doing so much better! I know I did the right thing after how well she took to it, but I also know she would rather be sleeping with me instead of all alone...

I just feel awful about it, and irrationally want to just take it all back and go back to bouncing her to sleep for 2 hrs just so we can sleep together.

Anyone with a similar experience? Did your babystop crying to sleep eventually? How did you deal with the guilt of not giving them that comfort at night?

Any insight would be greatly appreciated!