First job anxiety (UPDATE)

Ok I don’t have anywhere else to put this but. I’ve recently been hired at a local restaurant as a host, and I’m going to be training as a waitress. I’ve only worked 2 days and I’m such a clumsy person.

I’ve dropped and broken a glass milkshake glass, dropped plates, just been awkward, I’m constantly sitting in the back with nothing else to do just chatting with the cooks.

The work atmosphere is very very relaxed, everyone pokes fun at everybody, so a cook (Rick) and I are constantly poking fun at each other. He’s chased myself and a waitress around the back throwing food at us, and we’re constantly teasing each other. I’m constantly making mistakes, constantly loud and clumsy and awkward.

And then today. My mum was poking and prodding me about work, then asked about my schedule. I looked at it, and I misread it. And I panicked. I told my mum, she panicked, which made me panicked even more, then she began to try and call my work (huge no no to me, come on. My mom calling me in sick??) so I just ran to my room to call them before she could.

As it turned out. I work tomorrow and not today. Why am I like this. Why am I so terrible at this??

UPDATE

yea I lost the job. The waitresses hated me and were trash talking me to my manager, along with literally blaming me for their mistakes among other things so. Yayyy