Need to vent

I swear the people that are the most unfit to be parents always get pregnant. It breaks my heart that we been trying for years now and thousands of dollars and still have yet for a blessing. We can take care of our selves and can afford to take care of a child too. The women the state pay for seem to just pop out kids left and right. My heart hurts from anger, envy and jealousy. I'm not afraid to admit that. If only our blessing would come