PPD & PPA

I went from working and going to school every day for the last 8 years to being a stay at home mom and housewife.

I love that I can be home with my baby but I feel so disconnected from everything. I dont have any friends where we live and we live hours away from family.

I feel like my brain is just off and I'm going through the motions. I love my son more than anything but I am just so sad.

I have tried to talk to my husband about the issues I'm having and he has pretty much said that if I "was more organized I wouldn't have anxiety about stuff" and that the way I'm feeling is preventable.

I know he doesnt mean it in a harsh way but he really doesn't and cant understand how I feel and it just makes me feel completely disconnected from him. I dont want to talk to him or look at him for that matter.

I'm having such a rough time with all of this but my midwife refused to put me on medication and were moving I'm a few weeks so there is no point in getting established with a therapist.

I just wish I didnt feel this way.