A pregnancy from hell

When i had my daughter 8 years ago it was a beautiful experience despite me finding out the father turned out to be married with three kids and my world changed. But ive been blessed with an angel of a daughter truly so no regrets. The wife even found a happy ending and met a nice guy shes engaged to. I couldnt wait for another beautiful experience when i found out i was pregnant with the man i love most in this world. He was my best friend for over a decade and my true love. We were going to marry but with my bipolar we had to literally cancel as i was hospitalized. He was wonderful and supportive. Then i was discharged and the nightmare started. We fought everyday and he put me down and i felt alone. My mood swings from the mediocre medication took a toll. I got a job to help but that turned out to be stress bc my job everyone hates me and its miserable every single shift. Then he showered one day and i went into his tablet and found conversations between him and an ex where he said the most hurtful things. I confronted her and him and changed the locks and a domestic situation took place. Now theres an order of protection, his parents moved him out and the stress is so bad my health decreased that my heart stopped and they had to revive me. Im having early labor pains and im depressed and just want this pregnancy to end and give birth. I never vented this aside from my therapist bc i lost so many friends and they dont want to the burden. In my lowest im hurt, betrayed and alone. I guess i needed to get this off my chest. Thank you to anyone who reads this