Pregnancy and family rant

I’m sorry if this is a long post, but I need to get this off my chest. I love my family and I know they love me but they make it so painfully obvious that they don’t like me as much as my sister. All I have ever wanted since I was younger was to get my life together. Meaning live on my own get married have kids etc. I graduated high school and am now in the nursing program in college. I have my own house with my soon to be husband but all anyone in my family cares about is my sister. I don’t want praise. That’s not what I’m saying but I’d at least like for them to treat me the same as my sister. When she moved out my grandma basically bought everything to furnish her house. My grandparents bought her first car. They put credit cards in her name to boost her credit score. All that stuff. All I got when I left home was “aw good luck” I bought my own first car. I bought my own furniture. When I needed 15 bucks for gas cause my check was short no one could help but they will gladly pay my sisters rent for the month. The thing that ticks me off the most is that I have always wanted a child. I have had two miscarriages and when I told my family about the miscarriage (right after it happened) I was told “god will give you a baby when the time is right”. My sister HATES kids. She has always said that she will not have them and when she got pregnant my whole family was so happy for her. Crying and all that. Bought everything that baby every needed. Still buys everything he needs if my sister can’t. I know I shouldn’t be jealous but I can’t help it. I don’t understand why she is God’s gift for earth and I’m not. Like I said, I know they love me but it’s just so painfully obvious that She is all that matters. I just found out I was pregnant again and I’m so upset that I don’t even feel happy.. I’m so depressed from living with this my whole life that I don’t even want anyone to know I’m having a baby. I want to just do it on my own. I love my family but I’m just so over it. I feel terrible for thinking these things because after all there are people in this world who have literally nothing so I know it’s selfish of me but I can’t help it anymore!