I messed up.

I messed up by having a baby with the wrong person. Im so unhappy all the time. I try to be happy but he makes it impossible. Im 22 weeks pregnant.. I habent gained any weight. Im depressed all the time. I have my good days then... The reat the time im miserable.

He asked me to marry him. Then found out im pregnant. We have been trying things were good before the pregnacy. Then once it hit... After a month of it. He changed. Mean all the time. Saying hurtful things to me. Like today.. Im sick with a horrible cold. Finally felt hungry went to go make food and he said under his breath "fat" i asked him what did he say and his response. " I didnt say anything" isaid i heard you then he holds me and goes tell me you love me and wouldnt let go of me had me in a hold practically tols me " why are you such a baby im joking with you" (which obviously he wasnt). I love him but i dont want to be this unhappy all the time. This is my 3rd child. 2 with a different person and now one with him. I just feel so unhappy. Im sorry i needed to vent..