I hate being lonely!

Probably in the wrong section. I’m sorry in advance.

When I was in high school, I had an amazing group of friends. We did a lot of things together and hung out almost every day. We were very close knit and I thought it would last.

Come senior year a month before graduation, they started ignoring me. Over spring break they didn’t invite me anywhere. They didn’t talk to me at all. They had their own group chat. They cut me off basically and I could get the hints so I stopped talking to them.

2 years later, and I still see that they’re all as close as can be and traveling and doing things together.

I graduated high school with no friends. To this day I don’t have friends. I mean yeah, I am in a relationship ... but sometimes I want a group of girl friends to go out with and do girly things with like getting our nails done or shop. I have nobody to do that with. I text nobody but my boyfriend and I wish I had some friends to gush over celebrities with. Have sleep overs with. I’m just a lonely mess.

I feel like I have missed out on so much. Last night I was studying for finals and I realized ever since I graduated high school all I’ve done is do homework for college and study. I haven’t lived life. My life IS homework and studying.

My family is out of the question. My parents divorce has taken a toll on me and it’s just made me feel even worse.

This is all so sloppy but I’m so sad and lonely and AF just came today so it makes things worse for me. :(((( UGH