Asking for stardust and prayer...

I am 39 years old and the mom to a beautiful 14 yo son. I remained celibate for 13 years until I met the love of my life Shelby. It feels like he's been trying to get me pregnant since the day we met-lol

He proposed only two months in, but I'd been waiting almost 40 years for him so I can only say when you know you know, but this is the first month in our 9 together that I was really on board to try!

I'm four days late- Shelby was in a horrific accident last Wednesday and they are going to determine tomorrow if he is brain dead...

I'm terrified of taking a test and not being pregnant- I want to be able to give him peace in his heart... and if I'm not ... how do I let him go!?!