Marine..

For the past three years my heart has been with a marine MILES away from me. When we were official it was the best thing ever, even if we aren’t he’s still my best friend and we still talk every night.

He just took leave to come home and he won’t be coming to me.. I adore this guy, and our relationship has never been toxic but me being fixated on something as simple as a guy Just feels a little childish.

I’m starting my period soon and all I want to do is have him in my ear telling him all about my mood swings and pains. I don’t want to bother him while he’s with family, but I can’t help but wondering he’s actually with his family. (His family doesn’t even know we still talk!)

I feel like he’s using me, I’m not really sure what’s an “appropriate” way to act. I’m not really sure if there is an appropriate way to react. Honestly I should just move on. Three years is way to long to be holding on.