But I guess not. I've been talking to this guy for about 3 months and we finally met yesterday. I figured that's not a long time after talking to someone to finally meet them. Well that happened and I thought it went off amazing. Him and my dad got along and my dad said that he was actually a decent guy! My dad usually never says anything like that about the guys I meet so I thought hey this could be the one for me. So fucking in love all day. Then when he got off of work like around 2 am and called around 4 am... got a fucking reality check. I'm not the best at conversations especially face to face asking him if he was finally happy to see me. Shit like that. I understand now I shouldn't of said it and i also apologised knowing I did wrong but no that wasn't good enough. I let him meet my father and shit. I hugged him abut I didn't give him the first kiss cause I figured it would be better to wait for our first date to get that and not around my father. But no thats not good enough either. I wanted to go because my daughter was crying in the back and I felt as if I needed to hurry because that's just me. I feel rushed almost all the time. Basically he made me feel like I fucked everything up because it was our first time meeting and I wanted to save the special and romantic stuff for a first date. Made me cry not wanting to calm me down in any way at fucking 4 am. I'm just trying to vent and stuff also sorry for the repeated cussing. I just thought I could finally make him happy by meeting him (which I really wanted to meet him and see if he is who he really is kind of thing). Am I really in the wrong because I wanted to wait on certain things? I know I'm definitely in the wronh for saying repeatedly are you finally happy now because yeah that's hurtful and I should've realised it. I'm still learning how to just do all of this. I'm 21 and still learning. Maybe I just shouldn't date anyone because idk how to act in a relationship. Sorry for making this so long... I'm just really hurt my eyelids puffy from crying..

Update:

I haven't heard anything from him since then. My heart hurts so much just because he told me I was annoying for crying on the phone from being hurt. I feel I should probably just break it off with him or just talk about things civilly without hurting feelings or overreacting. Just the silence is what hurts most atm. Not much of an update but nothing's happened since then.