Hello everyone. Just got another negative test and just wanted to complain a little.

I’m feeling really defeated right now. I know there are people who’ve been trying for far longer and harder than myself. This isn’t to discredit anyone else.

I just feel like there is something wrong with me. Like I’m not really woman. Like maybe I’m not meant to be a mother because it’s not happening. Like I must not be good enough. Irrational I know. Everyone else seems to be able to sneeze and fall pregnant. It’s something I’d spent my entire life trying to prevent and so it’s really frustrating to find how hard it actually is. I feel like I wasted so much time trying to stop it from happening and now I’m so much more aware of the amount of time I have left to build my family. How much older my future childrens’ cousins will be. Anyway, rant over. Thanks for whoever listened!