Abigail is here💕

Abigail Ella was born today Dec 19 at 8:35am! Came in last night at 9pm for an induction, we started pitocin at 11pm and then tried to get some sleep. Nothing was really happening so while they kept coming in to up my dose I was just laying around listening to the lady in the room next to me give birth and being jealous it wasn't me yet 😂. But then at 6:10am I felt and heard a pop and called the nurse to tell her i thought my water broke and i was right and at 4cm! My pitocin was at 8 and immediately i felt intense contractions and asked for iv meds. The meds were ok, but they didn't do much for the pain and made me dizzy, so as the contractions got worse i just became annoyed by the meds and then suddenly they hit SO bad and I was 6cm. I was up on the bed making growling noises, panicked attempts at "deep breathing" and all but trying to run away from the contractions as they came. I sent my husband to tell the nurse I wanted an epidural and she came rushing in with the anesthesiologist. My nurse was so amazing, I felt like a wild animal that had been lit on fire, contractions were coming so close together and she held my hands and was telling me to breathe and stay still while the epidural was being placed. I just remember telling her I wasn't in the world anymore, felt like an out of body experience. But once they put the epidural in she checked me and baby was ready to come right then! They broke down the bed and a group of nurses came in to hold my legs and..stand around? 😂 while I started trying to push. But the epidural had numbed me so much I couldn't feel myself push and knew I wasn't doing anything. I pushed for almost an hour before asking them to turn it off and thankfully the feeling came back pretty quickly. I could feel the pressure and the contraction and finally was able to push with them, pushing feels SO good. It was such a relief through a contraction I couldn't believe I actually enjoyed that part. But once I could feel them I did 4 good pushes and the doctor was in, pulling baby girl out and placing her on my chest. My husband said it was really hard to not cry and he ended up tearing up a bitch which was a shock to me because he's so emotionless usually 😂. Then instead of an amazing meeting between me and my girl like I imagined, she laid on my chest for 40 min screaming while I desperately tried to console her and the doctor stitched my 2nd degree tear without fully numbing me first 😒 i felt half the stitches. When i told him i could feel it he just said "tearing naturally its harder to numb you because its not a straight line" But once I was all repaired and they left us alone baby girl and I were finally able to just lay together. She was still inconsolable unless she was nursing so my husband didn't get to hold her (without her screaming) for a good few hours. Now we're in our postpartum room, just exhausted and amazed and in love 💕 welcome to the world Abigail!