I'm so tired of the emotions and the depression and the sadness, it's so unfair to see and know all these people who are so undeserving of children and I cant have one. Its heartbreaking, mindboggling. I just dont understand why me. Every month I put myself through the same thing praying, hoping, wishing to get that second line. I give up, I'll never get to be a mom, I was so sure this month I even had how I was going to tell my parents and my husband's parents, I thought I was going to give them the best Christmas but instead I'm a disappointment. 😞