Sad and would love support

Hi ladies,

I’m feeling like an utter piece of shit. My boyfriend asked me for space one week before our 6 month anniversary. I know this isn’t a big deal or the end of the world. But it’s my first relationship and it hurts (I’m 23, he’s 21). We’ve been best friends since best friends February 2017, started talking October 2017, and here we are now. I think that’s also why this hurts. He’s been my person for almost 2 years.

Today is our anniversary and I stupidly said that regardless of our current situation, I was thankful for the past 6 months and Merry Christmas. He just replied to the Christmas part and moved on to a new conversation. I know he isn’t cheating on me and I know he overthinks and is overthinking our relationship. But it’s getting to the point where I’m bummed and over it. I shouldn’t be made to feel like shit during the holidays because he’s unsure of himself. I shouldn’t be made to feel like shit ever. No one should.

I have no super close friends to confide in and the few I do are mutual friends. On top of that, my parents have been awful at hearing me out. I know it must be frustrating to have me be sad and gloomy during the holiday. But I’m not in the mood to smile or fake happiness 24/7 when my heart is breaking inside.

To make matters even more frustrating the past two guys I’ve tried to date have both reached out saying how they missed me and wanted to catch up. They pushed me away when I was first getting to know them, just like my current bf is doing now. It makes me sad that people only value me when I’m not around. I feel like when I am around to hear and care about them, they take me for granted. It sucks.

I’d love some well wishes or jokes or whatever. Just something to lighten the day. Thank you for hearing me out. Happy holidays 🎄