My heart hurts ...

So the man I’m pregnant by has a gf and a baby due in October (he didn’t disclose this to me until I was already 3 months pregnant, and we were just casually hooking up, I know 😭)

We met online but he lied to me for months about his name, (I literally had to search his phone number to find out he’s been lying about that), ignored me when I was trying to meet to discuss the babies (twins), and didn’t even bother to be honest about his relationship status upfront.

Finding all this out made me so shocked and angry, I messaged this girl who I was certain was his gf (she was also expecting) and told her the situation. She responded pleasantly but still took him back and blocked me.

He also blocked me on Facebook after I outted him and I checked his profile from my friends account and he changed his picture to him and his baby girl. His girlfriends picture on Instagram is a group pic of them with Santa.

I’m so depressed right now and I really feel like he ruined my life. I know we both made a conscious decision to be irresponsible and have unprotected sex but it seems like he gets away with everything and I’m all alone looking like the bad guy to him and probably his gf as well. No one in his family even knows about me or the twins and I literally can’t stop crying... I think I found his mom on Facebook but I haven’t said anything. Last time we talked before I told his gf he said he’s going to ‘give a bit of money’ and ‘see them occasionally not often’ I was so upset I messaged his gf and right after he asked’ for a DNA test to make sure these kids are mine’.

I’m feeling faint like all these people are liking his picture and commenting and I’m scared the twins will never get acknowledged and it will just be his ‘dirty little secret’ and it’s breaking my heart.

I was planning to let him know when I go into labour/ when I’ll be induced and then after the DNA test maybe reach out to his mom if he doesn’t. I really need the help and support, but I’m scared and just don’t know how to feel.