My confession

So, after seeing a few posts, I thought I'd make a confession about my abusive relationship. Not all abusive relationships are one sided abuse. Sometimes... The abuse changes you...

I was in a relationship with a guy who was two and a half years younger than me. I was in high school at the time (everyone freaks over that little fact) and I was quite innocent for my age (he was more experienced than I was. I had done NOTHING with anyone at this point.😂) so it didn't seem like much of a gap. It started out great. He made me so happy and paid a lot of attention to me. After a few months, he started changing. He was jealous of me hanging out with a friend of mine who was a male. He didn't want me near him, and after a while, I gave up and stopped talking to the friend. Soon enough, it seemed like he was my whole world. Why would I need anyone else when I had him? He had me hanging off of his every word. Who was I to say no? The constant jealousy was too much. But he began to control who I hung out with. Who I talked to. He got mad if I didn't respond in 30 seconds. I didn't recognize the signs until it was too late for me. I began to crave the attention. I pushed all male friends away and began to stay home instead of choosing to be with friends. He controlled where I went and even what I wore. Then, I saw myself change. I began to get upset when he didn't respond. I began to manipulate him back. Who was I? Why was I doing this? I didn't know who I was becoming. It wasn't until he cheated on me and expected me to live with it that I decided that enough was enough. I left him very quickly and graduated high school. But I was still weak. He tried texting me and calling me. I found myself in a relationship with an amazing guy a month later. My ex still kept texting me and telling me that we would be together in the future. I kept promising we would before I realized it wasn't true. I took one final stance and sent him a message telling him I was done. I unfriended him on everything and moved on in my life. I now have been with my boyfriend for nearly five years and I couldn't be happier. I'm still trying to reverse some of the damage done. I've healed and forgiven, but I haven't forgotten. I never want to be like that. To let someone control my life like that.

Girls. Never let anyone control you like that! Fight back! Be strong! You're worth it!