Just found out my cousin gave birth!

I am super happy for her and her healthy baby girl. She gave birth before Christmas. But inside i feel like my heart is aching. I’ve been trying for over a year, i know some people been trying for longer but this is the feeling that its so hard to explain to someone if they’re judgmental. Now im super sad that im not as lucky as she is. And she’s younger than i am. Just wishing that was me holding that angel in my arm. She had her Christmas Miracle and now im hoping for a New Year Miracle! Baby Dust come to all of us !!!