Relationship advice

So me and my child’s father broke up 8 months ago. Due to us not getting along right now.

He’s meet someone and I guess their together I’m not sure because his cousin was like which girl are you talking about! And she was like it’s not even worth it but anywaysss🤷🏽‍♀️ this girl took him on trips and buys him shoes and clothes and such...how I know this he threw it in my face

Anyways I’ve begged this man to work it out for our family and he simply said No I don’t like who you are right now. Like what ...I felt like that was an excuse to leave me. She also wants to fight and constantly tries to throw shade at me thru fb

Moving forward so one day he will try to talk down on me call me different names and such to try to break my spirit. i simply asked him that day what do you want?? He said he wants to be happy....& I told him U didn’t want to be happy with me so I left u alone. I use to blow his phone up. Then Another day he will ask me if he can come over or if I can come over. I don’t get it. He left me ... he will still say he loves me and stuff but tell me we can’t be together or he doesn’t wanna work it out. But try to cheat on her to be with me ? I mean if he’s trying to cheat on her to be with HOW MANY MORE WOMEN is he really laying up with....

I know I’m not perfect. We both definitely had our own ups and downs in our relationship. But I was so all for trying to work it out and get through this with the man I love...But nope I just don’t understand how u spend 4 yrs with someone THEY get caught cheating and simply say I don’t want you no more...I wanna be with her. Then when I let him go and tell him sure be with her he tries to cheat on her to be with me. SOMEONE help me understand this fool

So what I did I just blocked him 😕 Blocked him because I don’t need anyone trying to play with my feelings anymore. Blocked him because I deserve better and my son deserves his mother to be happy. I use to make myself available because I felt like he still wanted me. WRONG DECISION. I blocked him completely out my life. When he wants his son I drop him off at my moms every other weekend and he gets him like that. I’m trying to have NO contact with regardless of my son. Out of sight out of mind. I wanted him so badly and I wanted to be a family so badly. Like I couldn’t see my son being raised by another man, I have him majority of the time. but I will NOT let a man try to do me any kind of way. I never learned how much self worth and value means until NOW. I feel like if he really wanted something with me or really wanted to be with me he will at least try right...just leave her and try with me right...or at least try to put effort he didn’t do neither

So what I also did was self love. I’m more content with myself than ever. I got out by myself and met a lot of new people. I’m moving 3 hours away from him and his family they won’t know. I applied to a college there for the sonography program. It’s a 2 year program. I want to walk back into my hometown a new me and improved me. But I’m doing this for me and my son. I am a CNA and I wanted to be a nurse but I found out it’s not for me. I love sonography but the only school that offers it is 2-3 hours away.

The crazy thing is I haven’t found a guy YET I haven’t had sex with no one new yet. And it’s crazy because within 2 weeks he was banging his coworker the girl now. She also threw everything in my face. How jealous she thinks I am, how worthless I am, how much he tell her he regrets me. I just don’t understand you guys...he basically left me and his son to be with her and her daughter. Someone told me u have to make a man miss you ? LIKE WHATTT

If it’s meant to be it will be right 😞. I figured I will let him play her heart. I’m sure if he’s trying to cheat on her to be with me he has to be talking to more girls.

My mother told me it’s not for me to understand! But I’m still shocked how he could do me like this and still claim he loves me.