Insecure with realationships

I try to love myself and be confident in relationships but ive struggled with depression and cutting but ive mostly stopped. This guy ive been talking to in 8th grade, Nolen Gee. He likes me but hes gonna be in high school next year. Ill have a few good weeks being confident then ill feel not good enough and anxious and i always feel like im clingy or annoying. Am i alone??