Miscarriage and loss of relationship

I had a miscarriage last night and my fiancé or significant other and myself are quite devastated.

I say significant other because he is still married and is going through a divorce in Mexico.

Well, during my miscarriage I messaged my ex telling him I loved him and what was going on. I know this isn’t good but we were very close and he was all I had and when I panic or go through anything awful I feel like calling him or running to him. I wasn’t expecting my fiancé to go through my phone and read my emails.

I was wondering why he was acting so mean at such a horrible time.

I feel like we were so close when I was pregnant but after I lost the baby we both contacted our families instead of each other.

Now today I feel awful for what he read and the only way I found out he read my messages is he took a photo of them on his phone.