I have been TTC baby #1 for 17 long months. We are both 36 and have not had any kiddos before. So it’s been discouraging and slowly became an extremely sensitive subject for me with each negative test. I was getting to the point where if I saw another baby announcement or bump photo on my all my different social feeds I’d give up the whole process because I was so saddened that we hadn’t been successful AND now we’d have to do it with doctors instead of naturally. And I’m not a typically jealous or envious person so this yucky feeling was bothering me a lot.

This last cycle I was certain I missed the fertile window. Also, my husband tested his semen recently and we were deemed infertile due to a low count and some issues there. So we decided to keep trying the old fashioned way and begin the <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IUI</a> treatment in the next few months. But for some reason I thought I’d just take a test this morning, as I was 3 days late (which has been super common each cycle for me lately...I’ve been off by a few days a lot and always a BFN).

The first test was the cheap strip that blasted positive so fast. The next three did the exact same. I can’t believe this is how we are starting our New Year! I was shaking and crying and a complete and total basket case haha. My husband is still at work and I haven’t told him yet but I’ve got a cute surprise. He has NO idea bc the constant month after month with a BFN has made it something I don’t even chat with him about during the cycles - haha and only let him know when our window comes each month. I can’t wait to see his reaction!

Lastly, ladies I want you all to keep the faith and keep trying if you’re still waiting for your BFP. It will happen, and as they always say - it happens when you least expect it! I thought that was crap, but it’s proven itself today for me. It’s difficult to see other woman post all over social media about their pregnancies while you’re struggling to get pregnant and there is so much emotion tied into this process. That doesn’t make you a bad person, but makes you human. Keep your heads up and stay positive —- and I hope you all get your true positives soon! ❤️