So we started trying for baby number 2 back in April. As soon as we had my nexplanon bc removed I git pregnant like I didn’t even get a period after the removal. Sadly it ended up being a blighted ovum and we had to have a dnc. We were devastated because we’d gotten pregnant so easily with our daughter and had a totally healthy normal pregnancy so when we got pregnant this second time we never thought anything would go wrong. Our doctors assured us it was a freak thing and we’d be fine but we weren’t. We had a chemical right after that but my ob again assured us those are very normal and you only catch them because your trying so as much as it hurt we moved forward. We conceived again in August and we were excited but very scared. The first scan was such a relief because it showed the gestational sac and the tiny little yolk sac inside and we were sure the hard times were behind us. But then one morning I woke up to blood and let me tell you ladies I sobbed like omg. Everyone in here assured me it could be fine sometimes women just bleed during pregnancy and end up being fine but deep down inside I knew. We went to my ob and learned there was a gigantic mass of blood and tissue behind our baby pushing it out. I was so upset but I wouldn’t accept it I made myself believe it’d all be ok but it wasn’t I ended up needing an emergency dnc because my blood went sepsis and I had a fever of 104. I was so torn down after that words can’t even describe it and then go figure I had another chemical after that. That was in October it’s now January and we’ve had nothing now. I’m so broken down so lost I don’t know what to do. I’ve started drinking every night because it’s the only way I can make the pain stop ... I need help ladies I need kind words now more than ever. All my family says is “oh it’s fine it’ll happen one day just stop it” but that just makes it worse. I feel so hurt and so lost idk what to do. I need someone to talk to that’s going through this too or has been through this please ladies I’m begging here