I had an abortion and I deeply regret it.

I had a surgical abortion yesterday at planned parenthood. I went into it unsure of my decision but my family and the guy were pushing me to do it. My dad told me I was selfish and ruining the family and destroying my parents marriage.They told me they had higher hopes for my future than raising a baby at 19 years old. I was told I couldn’t do it and my child would suffer having a young mom. The people were nice and I had the sedation so I don’t remember much of the procedure. But when I woke up I knew I made a mistake. I was ten weeks. My baby was developing facial features. And now he or she is considered medical waste. I haven’t stopped crying. I feel so empty and my heart hurts. I’m praying and hoping that somehow they messed it up and the abortion failed because I made the biggest mistake of my life and I will never be the same and I will never not think about this terrible loss. I wish I could just die.