Confused

No rude comments please! I’m so confused on what to do. I have had mixed emotions ever since this pregnancy. I am 6 weeks after miscarrying a few months ago. At the time I wanted that one, but had planned soon before I found out that i was already pregnant so soon again to get back on birth control after years of using spermicide gel & tracking & dodging ovulation. Im not trying to have a pity party, but have been through pure hell with guys all throughout my life including a divorce to a guy I loved with my heart, then 2 narcissist guys after. Now I am with my current boyfriend & things are good overall for 75% of the time but a lot of things are still in question because I have found out small things that don’t seem to add up yet & we’ve been together 5 months. I love him, but am really scared of the unknown basically as in where this relationship will end up years from now or if things will get worse once it’s too late to take the pill for abortion. I have depression & extreme anxiety & he’s bipolar which clashes a lot of times since I’m constantly worrying & need reassurance from him & he’s either full of energy & up or extremely low & down. He has debt from getting behind on his bills & I have cc debt that is trying to be paid off. He lives with me since I have my own place & we both have full time jobs. My family is very against kids before marriage & raised me that it was wrong to do so, so now it’s came to where if I decide to keep it we’ll get married before I start showing then a month or so after announce that I’m pregnant. One part of me says stick it out & pray that what’s meant to be will be & hope for the best but the other says, it’s too soon for this & I’ll end up single & with a kid while having to try to support myself & raise the baby. Any honest advice & recommendations, please be nice but lmk your opinion. I’m stressed to the max & need an answer. 🙈😓