Have you ever cheated?

I dated a guy when I was 16, turned 17 four days before we broke up. Before him, I dated a guy that fucked me over for 2 years. He manipulated me into sending him naked pictures and convincing me that my boyfriend at the time didn’t love me and that he had been cheating on me. Long story short, he found out and broke up with me. It’s been 2 years and I still want nothing more to than just apologize to him and hold him because he’s the sweetest guy I’ve ever met in my life and he didn’t deserve that.. I did everything I could to keep us together. I cried, begged, talked to him, even wrote 35 letters but it just wasn’t the same after what I did.. just needed to get that off my chest 😞😞😞