Everyone help me please(prayers)

Lately I can't sleep at nights and I'll cry myself to sleep,lately I'll been tossing and turning there's something missing in my life is my future husband.

I'll been reading on here everyone has cute,loving, amazing love stories like getting engaged and starting a family

Having husbands are real keepers.

I'll been praying every night to god

To ask him to send me a good,loving,sweet, handsome

and heart of gold and loves animals

And kids and wants to start family.

I just feel that god doesn't want me to be happy and loved and getting married.

Sometimes I just want not to believe in god and religion at all.

I wanted to say you all lucky and bless

To find your true love,husbands.

I hope it's not too late to meet him.

I am writing this right now crying so hard.

I am not looking and searching for him

I'll don't like social sites like Facebook and dating sites.

And please say your prayers for me

That I will be happy and loved that I will find a good man and husband in my life

And my future too.

I'll want feel his arms around me

That I know I am ok and safe and protected and feel his love and touch

Hear his breathing and heart beating

And touch his face and hold his hand and put his hand on my heart to feel my heart beating.