Me and my man had been together for roughly 7

months and honestly I was happy, we had our bumps in the road but overall whenever I was with him, I was happy. There were just moments that I would be so upset due to a situation that I would find myself crying myself to sleep. I had no idea why because I would look at the situation and think to myself "it's not that deep why are you taking this so personal??" I would constantly critique myself for being so overly emotional over something so tiny. So one day I thought the right thing to do was to force myself to not feel at all which ended up resulting in an emotional break which lead me to end things with him. I broke my own heart when doing this because I loved him so much and as the words left my lips I instantly regretted it. I felt like I made a huge mistake but my family and friends said otherwise. There was clearly something way deeper going on that continued to make me upset with him I just could not pin point it. Then my friend told me I was engaging in self destructive behavior. I had no idea what she mean by this so I decided to look into it and my god, it was like reading my own biography. I was engaging in behaviors that I believed that would help with my emotions and they did but only temporarily and also was only causing more harm for myself in the future. Some examples of self destructive behavior include under or over eating, self harm, self pitty and unnecessary self-sacrifice, etc, all of which I had engaged in wheter it was during our relationship or in my life in general. This discovery in itself gave me the clearity I needed to understand myself and to take care of my issues the right way. I told him that I wanted to get back together and he said that he did too but there's somethings I need to focus on and work on within myself before I can start to focus on working on us. I told him Im going to remove myself for about week to focus on myself and bettering myself to which he agreed to leave me be. I'm going to start practicing meditation and seek professional help. It's only the first day and it's hard to not think of him but I know things will get better as the week continues. Once the week or so is done, if I still feel like I want him back in my life I will sit down, have a talk with him, maybe catch him up on what progress I've made and from there we can hopefully build ourselves back up.