Dealing with loss

So today marked 5 weeks and I had posted about bleeding and went in to get it checked. I came for reassurance left with a heartbreak. Come to find out I was having an ectopic pregnancy. I haven't stopped crying since. I had to have a chemical induced misscariage. I'm so heartbroken. All the peices were falling in the right spots. I never thought I would have to willingly stop my own pregnancy. I don't know how I'll ever heal. 😭😭😭

Will it ever get better?

This is my 2nd misscarriage I don't think I'll ever be ready to have more anymore. If I do I will never be excited again