So I found out today that I have low fertility 😕😔. I have always been worried about my ability to have children, but having the horrible results right in front of me was a kick in the guts.

My partner and I sat down tonight to talk about starting TTC now, or waiting until June/July like we agreed last year. Despite all of the pros and cons for waiting or starting now, my partner said he’d still like to wait.

I thought I was prepared for that but before our conversation ended I burst into tears. I honestly felt like I had just lost my chance completely. I could see my fertility getting so much worse in just 6 months.

Anyway, we went to bed and I was still upset. I tried not to show it but my partner could tell. I burst into tears again and he made me talk to him. I talked to him about my fears, I talked to him about how prepared we are, I told him that I understand why he wants to wait a few months and that I’m not mad at him, I’m just sad for me.

After we both let everything out, he told me that he wasn’t ready before, but he us ready now. He said that he hates seeing me cry and that he wants to help me achieve my dreams of being a mum, but he also wants to be a dad.

He said that my happiness is way more important than the fears about me miscarrying while we are on holidays, or his fears about not being able to complete his training due to having a kid, or not being able to provide for us properly because of his studies/training. I reassured him that I would never want him to give up on his dreams or stop his training and that he will finish it no matter what.

So I’m the end, he told me that he was 100% on board with TTC. He even started talking about when I was ovulating next and making sure we can baby dance as much as possible. I’ll be away for work so he’s going to drive up to see me. 😆

I love this man so much and I have never felt more loved by someone in my whole life.