Very sad

Well I just got out of an abusive relationship. I know we had very fun times and he made me laugh and feel good but most of it was bad. He cheated on me several times and Every time I tried to tell him how I felt it was always in a crazy bitch. To go to hell and much more every thing was my fault. He made me cry and feel so horrible. I’m really positive I made the right decision in leaving him. It still hurts and a part of me wants to go back. My moms friend has been through a similar experience and told me he was manipulating me and I agree.