Everyone but me 💔😭

If there’s one thing that I want more in this world than anything , it’s a child that I can call my own. Well lately my nipples have been super sensitive and sore, and I have been cramping since about a week after ovulation which we bd the first few days in my fertile window. My period is due on the 20th and I just went to the bathroom only to wipe and see 2 tiny little speckles of what I think was blood. I checked my cervix which I usually do to see if the mucus is pink meaning Aunt Flo is coming. And I checked and my cervical mucus is still a milky white color. I don’t know what’s going on. It after I came from the bathroom I open up Instagram just to see a woman pregnant almost about to pop. Same thing with Facebook I can’t even open it up without seeing someone announce a pregnancy. It broke my heart so much. I’m not sure if the blood was my period or if it was just “spotting” which I’ve never had before but I’m so nervous and hurt right now I don’t even know what to say. Too scared to take a pregnancy test and see another negative and too stressed to wait for Aunt Flo to come 😩