Sexual Abuse.

A couple of months ago I got involved and became friends with a boy. Things got flirty in text and everything but I had just got out of a relationship so I used this as my healing. One time when I was on a drug the boy grabbed my face and kissed me without even asking me anything. I felt really uncomfortable but I couldn’t do anything in the moment because I was not in the right state of mind. I would hang out with him and a couple of friends and whenever they would leave he would still do the same things. I would tell him no. and i would push him away but he kept going acting as if I wanted it. This was all the time but me, being a dummy depressed girl that was just broken up with, didn’t do anything and just let it be. I was scared that my ex would find out about this and get mad at me because he knew the kid. This kept going on and i didn’t really know what to do because I couldn’t tell anyone what he was doing because then they would say i wanted that and they would blame me for the whole situation. I went on and on with this. Still not telling anyone. The last string was when I was literally screaming stop! leave me alone! i don’t want to kiss you. He would try to touch me and move my hands so that I couldn’t move my arms to push him or anything. I recently told my boyfriend which was my ex before and he’s just saying “why did you keep hanging out with him if he was doing this” and i don’t know how to explain this to him. I’m hurting so much and don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to defend myself. Please help me.