4th degree tear experiences?

Ka

Hey ladies! I gave birth 8 months ago and unfortunately it was a very tough delivery. Babies shoulder got stuck coming out and I had a 4th degree tear. I truly believe that if I had not had the epidural and much better staff it wouldve been much easier and I would’ve been much more in control. I’m curious if any of you have had a 4th degree tear and went on to have more vaginal births or if they recommend c sections after? I would love to start TTC but I’m so afraid I won’t be able to have #2 how I’d like to (no epidural, water birth maybe) I just moved and haven’t set up a new obgyn yet so I can’t ask them right now.