Rant rant rant

I feel like I'm not having my BFP because I'm never really actually happy that it's not me. I'm happy but only to a certain extent I feel like my own selfish ways is because I haven't had a baby. Still just waiting for my time trying not to think about it but everyone around me are announcing there news or every social site I have there's babies everywhere. Even going to the grocery store babies just smile & stare I'm just waiting for my time. 23 not getting any younger