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Ok ladies, I’m going to try to make this as short as I possibly can.

My husband, my almost 2 year old, and I are currently staying with my dad. My mom and dad have a couple of foster kids that live at the house (among some of my other adopted siblings), they none have any major issues but they usually require supervision to make sure they don’t try something that they’re not supposed to. My mom asked me a few times that if something ever happened to her if I would move in with my dad and help him finish raising the kids. Which I, of course, promised to do.

My mom passed away 3 months ago and now my husband, almost 2 year old son, and myself live with my dad.

I am currently 25 weeks pregnant (as of tomorrow) with our second son.

I am completely torn on whether I should breastfeed or not. I’ve always seen where people say “breast is best” and I know that the doctors and nurses really push for it, but I’m not sure with our current living arrangements that it will work. There are times that my dad will need to leave the house, my husband will be at work, and I will need to feed the baby. I don’t feel comfortable, even with a cover, feeding my baby in the living room around the other kids and I don’t want to make them feel uncomfortable either, but they will have to have my supervision. I didn’t breastfeed my first and he turned out to be perfectly healthy and happy, but I kind of wanted to breastfeed this one.... I’m just not sure that it will work to where I can. My husband thinks it will be easier and be best to formula feed. His opinion is that we go with whatever works best for us and not worry about what others say. And in all honesty, I’m the exact opposite, I can’t help but let what people say/think about me get to me. I feel like formula feeding would be our easiest, best choice at this point, but some part of me wants to breastfeed and if I’m being completely honest with myself, I’m worried of what people will think and say about me if I don’t.

Please help, I’m so torn!