Im 16 and i still live with my parents, im bi and my dad is insanely homophobic and incredibly racist. He constantly throws around slurs and im not allowed to have any friends that arent white. I was in thw car with him cause he was driving me to winter guard practice and somehow the conversation escalated to him ranting about how there wasa gay man elected governor and he started yelling "they need to bring back concentration camps for fags and snowflakes!!" And "we should bring hitler back!!" He knows im bi and i was really scared. I told my mom when i got home and she told him he's not allowed to drivee anywhere but whenever he pulls shit she says she's ginna do something about it and never does. I don't think she actually gives a fuck about me cause she has witnessed him attempt to heat the shit out of me and molest me SEVERAL TIMES AND NEVER DID ANYTHING OR SAID ANYTHING THEN WHEN I GET PISSED AT HER FOR STAYING WITH HIM SHE SAYS I HAVE TO FORGIVE HIM!!!! NOT ONLY THAT IN MAY OF 2018 I REPORTED MY EX TO THE COPS FOR RAPING ME AND THEY TOLD THE INVESTIGATORS THAT THEY WERE GONNA BE SUPPORTIVE AND THEY NEVER FUCKING WERE!!! MY MOM CALLED ALL OF HER FRIENDS AND GOSSIPED TO THEM ABOUT IT A WEEK AFTER AND THEY ALLOW MY LITTLE BROTHER TO MAKE FUN OF ME FOR IT ALL THE TIME AND THEN I GET YELLED AT FOR YELLING AT HIM!!! IN OCTOBER OF 2018 MY EX STARTED STALKING ME AND LEAVING BAGS OF FOOD OUTSIDE MY WINDOW AND MY MOM STRAIGHT UP TOLD ME TI FORGIVE HIM FOR EVERYTHING HE DID AND SO I TOOK MATTERS INTO MY OWN HANDS FOR MY OWN SAFETY ANF TOLD HIM I WILL CALL THE COPS AND HE TURNED AROUND AND THREATENED TI BREAK MY LEGS IF I DID BUT I STILL REPORTED THE STALKING AND FINALLY GIT A TRESPASSING AND HARASSMENT ORDER BUT MY MOM GOT PISSED AT ME FOR NOT LETTING HER HANDLE IT AS IF SHE WOULD EVER DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT!!!! BITH OF MY PARENTS ARE ALCOHOLICS AND FORMER DRUG ADDICTS/DRUG DEALERS AND THEY DRIVE ME CRAZY!! THEY STEESS ME OUT TO THE POINT WHERE I FREQUENTLY SNEAK OUT OF THE HOUSE BECAUSE I CANT HANDLE LIVING THERE!!! IVE TRIED REPORTING THEM BEFORE BUT MY PARENTS JUST HAPPEN TO KNOW PEOPLE WHO ARE SOCIAL WORKERS AND COPS SO THEY FUCKING GET AWAY WITH EVERYTHING AND JESUS CHRIST I CAN'T STAND A OTHER 2 YEARS OF LIVING HERE!!! I RECENTLY SAW A PSYCHOLOGIST GOR A MED EVALUATION AND THEY SAID I HAVE BIPOLAR TENDANCIES WHICH PRETTY MUCH MEANS IM BIPOLAR BUT MY MANIC EPISODES ARENT LONG ENOUGH FOR A DIAGNOSIS BUT I CANT GO ON ANTIDEPRESSANTS BECAUSE ITLL MAKE MY EPISODES WORSE AND THERE IS LITERALLY NOTHING I CAN DO ABOUT IT AND THE ONLY THING THAT HELPS ME FUCKING COPE WITH EVERYTHING IS WEED AND NICOTINE AND MY PARENTS RECENTLY CAUGHT ME WITH WEED AND I CANT LEAVE THE HOUSE AT ALL FOR IDK HOW LONG!!! THEY KNOW I DO IT TO COPE BUT THEY DON'T GIVE A FUCK AND I SEE A THERAPIST BUT ITS STILL INSANELY DIFFICULT TO DEAL WITH EVERYTHING!!! I HAVE NO FUCKING WILL TO LIVE MOST DAYS AND I JUST CANT FUCKING DO IT ANYMORE!!! I WOULD LEAVE AND GO TO A SAFE PLACE TO STAY BUT LAST TIME I DID THAT I WAS FORCED TO GO HOME AND MY DAD BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF ME!!!!! IM SO FUCKING PISSED AND AT THIS POINT I FUCKING HOPE MY PARENTS DIE FROM ALCOHOL POISONING CAUSE ALL THEY'VE DINE IS FUCK UP MY LIFE AND MAKE ME WANT TO FUCKING KILL MYSELF!!!!!!!!