I’ve decided to vent my feeling or else I fear they will consume me. My fiancé and I have been trying to have a baby for a few months now and I am already starting to feel jealous and upset when I see many of my friends recently announced they are pregnant. I feel horrible for instantly feeling pissed off at them. And I should clarify that I am not personally mad at them, I am more or less mad at my own situation. Which isn’t really fair for them. One of my best friends is pregnant and often updates me on how she is doing and while I want to be supportive and feel happy for her, I feel more and more discouraged the more time that goes by. To make matters worse, I work as a labor and delivery nurse and am constantly reminded that I am not pregnant yet. It’s beginning to be harder to come to work, especially when many of these couples got pregnant “on accident” and here I am trying to have one and can’t. I know stress can further prevent me from getting pregnant so I keep trying to remind myself that it will happen when it’s suppose to and to keep enjoying our time to ourselves why we can. It just gets mentally exhausting after awhile. I figured I’d share here instead of venting else where. Many do not understand. Even my fiancé just tells me to relax, but that doesn’t help. He doesn’t truly understand how it feels. I know it can take time, but I pray it doesn’t go on for much longer. I don’t think my mental health can handle it.