Newly single ftm

I’m absolutely devastated, the father and my boyfriend of 5 years decided he didn’t want to have any future relationship with me right after he got me pregnant.. I am so in love with him that this is physically painful and I have severe depression and now I am completely alone in this as I don’t have any family. I’m having a complicated pregnancy and I also found out tonight that he’s gone broke and the entire financial responsibility is going to fall on me. This was planned and he was 100% on board and now I’m couch surfing because he asked me to move out as well. I know he’s scared but I don’t understand what I did or why he would do this to our child... things were going so well. Does this ever get easier?