🤦🏾‍♀️ idek if I’m worth it anymore

My confidence is at rock bottom. I been thuggin it out. I arched all my pictures on Instagram I don’t post/take any pictures or videos of myself anymore. And I’m going through the motion again. A few minutes I was just crying non stop. Why? Well I’ve been holding everything in. I keep my feelings to my self and I some how managed to distance myself from everyone. Even my own Bestfriend 🤦🏾‍♀️. I try to keep my self occupied so I wouldn’t have to think but basketball season is over and I have all the time in the world now. I don’t like talking about how I feel. I don’t like people feeling bad for me. That’s kinda why I push them away. Last year I had a server case of depression and my Bestfriend helped me through it but I felt weak. To me I’m always supposed to be peoples shoulder to cry on, not the other way.